Maksu passed away

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Assalamualaikum...

I was at Zaza's wedding in Segamat when Enah smsed me telling that Maksu has passed away. I grabbed Nadia's arm and told her the news. We had just arrived after 3 hrs driving from JB. After taking a picture with pengantin, both of us excused ourselves to take pengantin's gifts out from my car together with Pakya. Alhamdulillah..especially for Zaza, I managed to collect enough money to buy her vacuum cleaner, Tefal rice cooker, Lovely Lace clock and stove. Our tradition strikes again.

 I'm smiling but not really smiling
Sori Zaza. Nak sangat stay lelama tapi mak saudaraku meninggal...

Initially, I decided not to go back as I just arrived at UTM, there are so much works and testing i planned to do and i have booked DSC machine on Monday too. But when I think deeper, I really need to be with my family at this time. So from Segamat, i went back to UTM to retrieve all my belongings and started the journey to Kedah at 7.40PM. I stopped at Melaka to sleep for 3 hrs. I was very tired and woke up at 2AM.

The journey continued accompanied with flowing tears when my mind catches the memories of Maksu. She was my father's sister in law. When i was in Saina, i always went to Paksu's house everytime I had holidays, their house is  much closer to school compared to my house. Tokchik (maksu's mother) told me that it was Ayah who charmed with Maksu first and decided to make Maksu her sister in law even though Maksu already has a boyfriend. Ayah knew Maksu when they both working with KEMAS and because ayah has only one brother, he wants the best for Paksu.. Due to Ayah's persistence, Maksu's family accepted Paksu (more like Ayah's) wedding proposal. Mak told me when Paksu and Maksu just got married, Ayah always take Mak,older brother and older sister to Maksu's family house by his motorcycle every weekends. Ayah really love her sister in law. When ayah was hospitalized, Maksu crying a lot too.

Without realizing it, i arrived at Kedah at 7am. I looked at ayah on his bed. I know he's super sad. His beloved sister in law has passed away and he cannot go to see her for the last time. Ayah started to cry while saying
"Adik aku dah takdak..."
sebak

I left ayah in Enah's care and left to Paksu's house in Kuala Nerang. My cousin said Maksu will be buried at 11AM so if i hurry i might my able see Maksu for the last time.

I was very lucky
I had the opportunity to mandi, kafan and follow Maksu to her new resting place. All the experience i gained with arwah Tok really helps. I can control my emotions. At 2PM I went back to my home, i was very tired that time but i can't sleep.

These painful things came at once, i need to catch my breath.

Bukit Bendera/ Penang Hill

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Assalamualaikum...

Yesterday, i went to visit Maksu at Hospital Sultanah Bahiyah who has been hospitalized due to an allergic. Base on my cousin's story, maksu's skin was hardened and blackened 2 weeks after she got injected by a doctor to cure her gout. Paksu stays beside her all the time and it left only me, Kakla and Zahra to send my cousin to Penang Airport. She needs to go back to her university in Sabah after her mother's condition getting better. Besides, Mak said she's already able to take care of ayah by herself.

After my cousin took her flight, three of us went to Bukit Bendera to enjoy the new train. Last time i came here, the old train gave me bad experience so i hope it'll give a good experience to Zahra.
I came here by bus in my last trip and this time kena cari car park sebab drive kereta from Kedah. Parking dalam tempat kuil and ada seorang pakcik Cina yang guide me to park. He costs RM 4

This Zahra's first time menjejakan kaki di Bukit Bendera, her Ibu's second time. Kakla kata her first time here when she was darjah 6,it was 20 years ago! Ticket for Malaysian adult is RM8 but for my case (university student) RM4 and Zahra free of charge. We arrived at 10am so the place wasn't as crowded as after we came down from the hill. Line nak beli tiket panjang bersusun2.Tambah pulak that day was weekend.



Banyak perubahan dah train baru ni. Faster and less scary.  Time kami naik nak hujan so kabus banyak and sejuk suasananya.
 
Walaupun pagi lagi, dah ramai pengunjung di atas bukit. Ada ramai juga budak sekolah di situ, must in a school trip. Ada juga Owl Museum and Snake/Bird performance.
 Harga masuk RM5, harga sama rata tak kira student or apa2. But Zahra still free of charge. Dalam muzium ni tiada burung hantu yang hidup, cuma gambar2 dan seni dari serata dunia yang berkaitan dengan burung hantu

 
 "The Royal Owl'
 "Sleepy Owl" yang mengantuk berjaga malam.
Zahra tengah khusyuk menonto filem owl. Dari rumah sampai ke atas bukit, dia punya kegilaan menonton tv tetap diteruskan.
 Time turun dari bukit pun best and menyeronokkan. Ramai yang prefer berdiri sebab nak tengok nature beauty di luar.
 So cute. Sayangilah nature.
Kami terus pulang ke rumah selepas itu.
Kesian pulak tinggalkan mak lama-lama nak uruskan ayah.
Tapi,  this little gateway sure was good for our health and motivations.
Feels like it's been a long time tak melawat tempat orang. Next week nak balik UTM for 2 weeks untuk siapkan testing slow release and SEM.




New bed for Ayah

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Assalamualaikum..

Ayah’s health has been improving these past few weeks. As one of ayah's homecare team, I’m feeling very happy while looking forward to his  best condition. However, ayah’s backside seems aching because he has been bedridden for almost 3 months. He can’t sleep for long hours now,. He will call my name or anybody near to help him sit. One morning, he fell off his bed when mak went to the kitchen. Then I decided to buy a new proper bed for ayah. This time he really needs a hospital bed with side rails and fowler so that mak can make ayah sit and sleep without using much energy.

 Air rippled mattress was bought before ayah got the permission to discharge. After surveying at different shops, Mutiara Pharmacy in Alor Star offers affordable price at RM350 after discount.

I started gather around information of the suitable bed and surveying for it most affordable price. The nearest pharmacy is the Master Pharmacy in Penang. I tried to find other pharmacy in Kedah that sell the bed but they require longer time to order from their supplier. So, Penang here I come!

I was amazed with the fact that Master Pharmacy is very easy to find. They located just behind Megamall Penang. I bought ayah’s bed at RM1350 and blood pressure detector at RM180. The lorry’s rent from Penang to my house in Jeniang, Kedah was RM160. 


This bed works perfectly for ayah.

DIY: Kad Kenduri Enah

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Due to Ayah's condition, our family decided to celebrate Enah's wedding moderately and only close relatives will be invited. There were some people suggested to delay Enah's wedding until Ayah regains his best condition however, the date has already been made a month before Ayah collapsed. It will effect Enah's future plans too. So, I play my part to support Mak, Oldest bro & Enah by making invitation cards.

I'm using Microsoft Publisher to design the card because i don't really fancy using the complicated  Photoshop. Luckily i brought my deskjet printer back and have bought ink refill beforehand so i can change the theme color depends on my liking. As the cards are printed on blank A4 paper,ink color is very important to make it interesting to read.

500 pcs of Kad Kenduri Enah siap! 

For doa, there are so many doa pengantin available online. Such as:

Ya Allah

Kami memohon restumu, berkatilah majlis ini,

limpahkan barakah dan rahmat ke atas pasangan suami isteri ini,

jadikanlah rumah tangga mereka aman dan bahagia,

dalam ketaatan terhadapmu,

kurniakanlah kepada mereka zuriat yang soleh dan solehah,

serta berikanlah ketenangan kepada mereka didunia dan akhirat,

sempurnakanlah agama mereka dengan berkat perkahwinan ini.

Amin.

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Dengan Nama Allah yang Maha pemurah lagi penyayang,

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku,

Seandainya telah kau catatkan dia milikku,

titipkanlah kemesraan diantara kami agar kebahagiaan itu kekal abadi,

seiringkanlah kami dalam melayari bahtera perkahwinan,

jadikanlah kami pasangan yang bahagia dan berkekallan buat selamanya,

hingga ke akhir hayat dan kurniakanlah kami zuriat yang sempurna,

beriman dan beramal soleh,

sesungguhnya engkau berkuasa atas segala sesuatu.

Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.

___________________________________________________________________

Tuhanku…..

Sekiranya telah kau catatkan dia milikku,

dekatkanlah dia padaku,

titipkanlah kemesraan antara kami,

satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku,

agar kebahagiaan itu kekal abadi dan

seiringkanlah kami dalam melayari hidup sejahtera.

___________________________________________________________________

Ya Allah

Andai kau berkenan,

Limpahkanlah kepada kami cinta,

Yang kau jadikan pengikat rindu,

Rasulullah dan Khadijah Al-Qubra,

Yang kau jadikan mata kasih sayang,

Imam Ali dan Fatimah Azzahra,

yang kau jadikan penghias keluarga,

Nabimu yang suci


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And for the kata2 aluan i just copied from a card received from orang kampung. It's also can be found online. DIY Kad Kenduri can save a lot money and it can differentiates itself from other ordered cards. Hopefully Enah will happy with this card. 

Blissful birthday

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Few weeks ago, when Enah was still in kampung Mak told her giving-birth-experience. 3 of us were sitting beside Ayah at that time. Mak must be feeling nostalgic looking at her husband.

Mak told us, i was born on Friday, 1.34PM when all men including my Ayah were at mosque to perform Friday prayer. Mak suddenly felt the urge and i came out to this world in our house. During that time, Mak's life at near death condition but luckily my late Tok, a very capable kampung's midwife was there. Ayah was called from mosque and Mak was transported to the nearest hospital. 

 The infant me not only was premature but had a very serious skin problem too. My skin became fish-like and was submerged in medicine filled tank each morning for 20 days. Mak said i kept on screaming and crying to a point where Mak has to cover her ears and close her eyes. She was so afraid she might gone 'meroyan' every time the doctors did that to her newborn. Each time i was taken out from the tank,the doctors left me under a blue light and my skin will started peeling off until it replaced with the one. 

It means, my current skin is the 20th generation skin. Now that explains a lot. 
I can't wear anything fancy except gold, regularly having eczema, scar can't left me etc.

On the other hand, i survived.
 Alhamdulillah

Indeed, I'm super grateful
I was a survivor newborn
People expected me to die just after few days i was born
But now i'm living the life i wanted to
Thank you Allah

People said the same thing to Ayah
But as the living proof of Allah's blessing,
No matter what people said, 
I hope Ayah will survive his test too.

Be strong Ayah!
That's the only wish from me, the 27th year-old birthday girl

      Both of us at the hospital 3 weeks ago

Seni seni mural

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I've been continuosly writing about my father's condition for the past few weeks so, as the new entry for the new month i wanna share something new too. It's about a project to repaint the long mural at my school, Sekolah Menengah Sains Pokok Sena. 

My batch Saina 99/03' had painted that long mural (i call it 'long' because it's actually really long) after PMR 01' so the long mural is not only long but it's also quite old, 12 years old gitu. 

Let me share the process..

Kemunculan Idea
The idea to repaint the mural first came into my mind after me, Anie & Trex visitted Saina right after attending Kak Has's wedding in Pendang. 

We took some interesting photos while we were there however, this one has touched me the most. The colour were fading away taking our precious school memories along with it. It took me by surprise that the school management was still hasn't repaint any new mural on top of our long mural, a part of me was rejoiced & urging to do something. When i arrived at home i texted Anie about my idea to repaint the mural. She said 'joms!" but we need to plan for it first.

Modus Operandi
Firstly, i approached all Persatuan Seni's members and told them about the idea.  I can't imagine if only me and Anie repainting the mural, we need our former members & luckily they were excited about it too. Yes!
Then, i called Cikgu Sopi for permission. Granted!
Here comes the most important part, i posted a status on our batch's fb page to invite more people to join in and to ask for donation as i told Cikgu that this mural is our responsibilty. Ngeh. 


Alhamdulillah, my friends were very supportive. We have enough money to buy all the colours. 

Hari Kejadian
I arrived at Saina at 11am and saw Dila & Shakin were there. Three of us went to buy paints at Pekan Pokok Sena and few minutes later Hani, Solha, Anie & Shidah told me they have arrived too. They started the painting first. 

Idi (front) is mixing red & yellow paint to produce orange coloured paint while Shakin (back) is testing the light blue coloured paint, the combination of blue and white. We had also produce purple colour by combining red and blue, green colour from the combination of yellow and blue and pink the red and white combo. Seni is all about creativity to produce synergystic & fantastic effects after all. Shakin made 2 beautiful butterflies with that effect. Sayang i didn't take their picture.

Shidah is one of the music class students but her enthusiasm for Seni and fpthis project is really admirable. She said she was gonna play recorder as she didn't know how to paint but i figured the brush and paint suited her best. There weren't any aircond back then so we have to squezing ourselves under the aircond to paint.

Dila (orange shirt) is one of the earliest to arrive, i hope she will be in the next project too.... Anie (hand only) had produced a stunning butterfly that day. She's my right hand and this project can't be done without her. Seriously, thank you Anie.

Shue (holding a baby) came with her son and her sister. She was sitting at the right in the first picture- scroll to top, you can know the time is actually ticking when you look at her son.

Solha (front) came soon as she landed from KL's flight, she's been very quiet compared to her usual self to not let her KL's slang coming out. As i just arrived from Johor a day before, I found my lips were trembling in fear too. Kinah (middle) was one the music-class students back then but she was also one of the Persatuan Seni members. Hani (back) was my doormate+classmate, i was so happy when she said she wanted to come early and bought a blue pelaka. That saved a lot. Wish Hana can come too.

These two boys are Zam (taking this picture) 's nephew. They are very talented just like their makcik. I heard they even repaired some butterflies. 

At 6pm Apit, Farid, Tobiaq and Kerol Hazwan came and they managed to paint another 2 panels.
So, at the end of the day 10 panels out of 18 had been repainted. 
We will continue this project some other time later.


I hope there will be more participants next time.
And that time I'm gonna makesure sign "SPM 2003" will be painted as well.

Thank you for all painters, money contributors and moral supporters.
Thank you thank you thank you thank you sooo much!

Seni itu menyatukan.




Ayah: Day 7 Redzone

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I arrived at ayah's new ward around 10am with Enah. Currently, she is our driver. In the morning, she send me and taking mak home. At 6pm she came to take me home and 1st bro took the baton to stay with ayah. The cycle is running perfectly these few days, and we will stick with the cycle until ayah got discharged. 

After mak and enah left, i started to massage ayah's left body like how the physiotherapist taught me. Then i feed him with his nutritious milk and finally, his medicine. I sit on a chair beside ayah after that. 

My power nap was disturbed when a group of doctors came to do a regular check up. A Chinese doctor came closer to me and started to explain about ayah's condition. She said they need to take ayah to the new hospital again to do a CT scan. 

Huh?! What is the point they transfer ayah to the old hospital and get back to the new hospital one day after?A nurse came in and i was asked if i want go to the new hospital with ambulance too. I said yes. It was my 2nd time. 

Ayah's head was scanned and he was put in the Red zone/emergency room after the result was obtained. They found that the bleeding inside his brain is getting wider. The infected area has increased as ayah has been feeding a medicine to liquify the blood and his hypertension making it worst. I was called by the neuro surgeon team for further arrangement. The surgeon told me every single details about ayah's condition and the surgery they might do in order to remove the blood. He told me the possibilities and risks about the outcome. 

I was confused. 

From what he told me, the surgery seems like a bad idea. 
I told him that I need to consult with my family members before giving him the final decision, either to proceed with the surgery or not.
I hurriedly call all the family members to discuss the urgent matter. 
As expected, they are all agreed with me - the surgery will do more harm than good.

They took ayah upstairs and once again he was admitted in his old ward in the new hospital but in different bed. I went to the old hospital to take ayah's belongings.

 It turned out the staff at the new hospital has made a silliest mistake in her life, enough said.


Ayah: Day 4 Pampers

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Raya ke 3 and ayah's condition still has not showing any improvement. He lose the ability to pee naturally so doctor has to provide him with pampers. Ayah has a big build that giving us difficulties to pull his leg the first time we want to change the pampers. Luckily Adi, our cousin from ayah's side came to visit. Together with him, me, Enah and Mak changed ayah's pampers. Ayah seems embarrassed when his daughters were cleaning his pee. He tried to speak but his lips cant functioning very well too.

After that, i went outside to stay with Zahra as Kakla wanted to come into the ward. Child below 12 yrs old cannot enter the ward. I took Zahra to the playground where all the children gather. I need a space to breath too. Unfortunately, there were so many children. i forgot about raya holiday. All patients' relatives are taking this chances to visit. 

Then, Kakla comes and i leave Zahra with her while i taking a break under a tree. Suddenly, there is a sick-looking woman came and started talking. She told me that she was just delivered a premature baby 2 weeks ago. She can go back home while her 7month old infant still needed full treatment. However, she still needs to come to the hospital to breast feed her baby. Her motherly tone suggested that she's okay with that as long as her baby is okay. She's the same age as mine and alreadya has 2 children. I feel intimidated when i told her that we're have the same age but i'm still a student and single. The difference is somwehow menakutkan..... 


Nurse ties Ayah's arm because he wants to remove the tiny tube near his nose.
Sabarla Ayah..

Ayah: Day 1 Rebah

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Ayah suddenly fell and his left side was paralyzed when he were preparing a place to make lemang. It was a day before raya and obviously Ayah was super-excited about it. That morning he told mak that he was gonna add another 2kg of beras pulut so that lemang will be enough to be distributed among his colleagues and besan-besan. Mak goes against Ayah this time as Mak already knew that ayah's health was at its lowest these few days but Ayah still with his decision. He went outside to makesure his lemang will be made in a perfect condition.

Older bro cried my name from outside "ayah lembik!" while trying his best to hold Ayah. When i arrived i saw older bro were desperately pulling Ayah to get into the house. All family members gathered around Ayah and massage him. Bro took him to district hospital for further treatment then ayah was transferred to the bigger hospital new few hours. 

Doctors scanned ayah's brain and they found blood inside his brain that prevented oxygen and giving pressure to the other parts of his brain. My family members rushingly went to the hospital and break our last fasting at the hospital. Tomorrow is Hari Raya Aidilfitri but Ayah didn't even recognize us. 

 

Struggle Continues

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Assalamualaikum..


"struggling  present participle of strug·gle (Verb)

Verb
  1. Make forceful or violent efforts to get free of restraint or constriction.
  2. Strive to achieve or attain something in the face of difficulty or resistance."

You see, Allah is the Greatest. Allah creates different human with different fate and individuality. Everyone has good qualities and weaknesses thus you cannot always comparing yourself to others. The results may hurt you in many ways. However, lately i keep comparing my study life with my senior's. They managed to publish their research paper in international journals easily while i got rejected regularly. I too want my research paper get accepted so that i can go through my phd viva with a flying color...

Just now my senior who had just finished his phd came back from his hometown and sharing a good news. He's gonna proceed his study as a post-doctorate candidate. He's in a good mood and i can see why. Then, he asked about my study. He said he heard from our supervisor that my papers got rejected many times and supervisor seems very concern about it. I know it, supervisor is worrying about my study...

Today i sent a manuscript with an extreme high hope to an international journal. I'm not gonna sit in despair anymore. There are lots of things i can do and need to do. 2 international conferences are next. After that, i'll try to send the viva notification in postgraduate office and thesis is on the way.  



 Somehow, struggling has become my nature. For i believe the fruits of hard work and patience are the sweetest.

Last words from a mother

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I think everyone might had realize how much I love Naruto looking at my pictures i've uploaded in most of my entries. For me, Naruto has taught me many things that i cant learn in real world (sounds like a true otaku). I started reading Naruto since my 3rd year of degree and now i'm in final year of PHD, nearly six years i cried and laughed with it. But, one moment i cried the most is when Naruto met with his mother, Kushina in his subconscious mind. 


Naruto's mom and dad's love story was so cute
Red mom and yellow dad produced an orange boy. heh.
Two epic episodes that change the whole story.

 
They died protecting their beloved newborn from nine tails fox.


Knowing that she can't be with her beloved newborn in the future, Kushina left very2 precious words:

“Naruto..
Don’t be picky.. Eat lots and grow strong..
Make sure that you bathe every day and stay warm..
Also.. Don’t stay up late.. You need lots of sleep..
And make friends.. You don’t need a lot of friends..
Just a few.. Ones you can really, really trust..

I wasn’t very good at it, but keep up with your studies and practice your ninjutsu hard..
Remember that everyone has strengths and weaknesses..
So don’t get too depressed if you can’t do something well..

Respect your teachers and upperclassmen at the Academy..
Oh, and this is important.. It’s about the Three Prohibitions for a shinobi..
Be extra careful about lending and borrowing money..
Put your mission wages into your savings account..
No alcohol until you’re twenty.. Too much can ruin your health, so drink in moderation..
Another Prohibition is women..
I’m a woman, so I don’t know too much about this but..
All you need to remember is that this world is made up of men and women..
So it’s only natural to take an interest in girls..
But just don’t get hooked on bad women.. Find someone just like me..
Speaking of the Three Prohibitions, be wary of Jiraiya Sensei, you know..
Naruto, from now on, you’re going to face lots of pain and hardship..
Be true to yourself..  

Have a dream and have the confidence to make that dream come true..
There’s so much.. Oh, so much more that I want to pass on to you.. I wish I could stay with you longer..
I love you”
— Uzumaki Kushina


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This is like my 5th times watching it and still, it brings tears to my eyes. Emo gila kan?
I'm a sucker for mom-son/daughter bonding. They are so pure.

pre-Viva Tips

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Viva is the most terrifying obstacle that a postgraduate student needs to go through before he/she can take a nice relief deep breath as he/she gets closer to finish his/her study. Of course there are so many more obstacles you have to face such as having writer block while writing the final thesis, manufacturer has delay posting chemicals, testing machine's endless waiting list, moody technicians, someone steals apparatus or chemicals and the list goes on and on...

So far i have go through 3 major vivas in my study life: final year project, Master and PHD's proposal defense. Alhamdulillah so far all panels were good to me and gave me a pleasant experience. Good, not so great but slightly better than doing bad. But then i realize that was because most of the panels were among my previous lecturers. How about IF they weren't my lecturers?

The thing is, i have low self-confidence every time i want to present something in front of strangers. My nervous system is weak that it'll show through my voice. It's detectable. I had 2 experiences giving presentation in a conference in front of few people and i'm still amaze of myself that i didn't blacked out during that time. hehe. I'm more amaze when watching someone with full of confidence doing their thing in front of people while wondering where they get all the confidence. Maybe they got a proper training in school. I wish i can be someone like that too. To be able to clearly deliver your research's results is a skill i need to have before i have my final viva on this March 2014. In order to achieve that mission, i've registered myself into another conference. This time i'll do my best to gain more beneficial viva experience.  

March 2014 may be insignificant for you and 7 months to go on top of that, however for me i feel it coming crazily fast . It's true when you are putting much efforts and hopes on something, your heart is beating real fast when the destined day is getting nearer. Perhaps, is this is the same feeling when future bride is waiting for her akad nikad's day? ----okok,not related.

For anyone who will attend her/his viva soon, i wanna share some TIPS -i have used them before and will definitely need them next year:

1)  Master your research
Make sure to fully understand all aspects of your research. Even the tiniest hesitation will jeopardize your performance. Panels may ask you to explain how's the testing machine work and they may ask you to explain its procedure step by step. During my master, a panel asked my friend to explain how a machine work but she cannot answer it because the test was run by a technician. Student just send samples, technician will do the rest, technician called student to take the results and finish. So, makesure to at least understand the test.

2) Discuss with Supervisor
Many students are so full of themselves and believe they can go through a viva without supervisor's advices. Discuss with your supervisor a week before and show her/him your powerpoint. Perform a mock presentation in front of SV will gain yourself more confidence. He/she might has tips to answer panels' questions too.

3) Prepare potential questions
When you are discussing with SV, ask them types of questions that'll likely to be asked regarding your research. My SV shared a lot of questions he heard while being a panel to other students. Then, prepare a counterattack measure by finding few possible answers and proof to strengthen your result.

4) Practice makes perfect
During my master, i kept on practicing every single day and night in front of a mirror. I think that was the first time i put so much efforts on something. During the actual viva, i didn't use my memory cards that i've made beforehand and the words just came out. Hohoho. well, nothing is perfect is this world, i did receive few comments and because of that viva i've decided to continue study. Panels told me something great and it motivates me to learn more.

5)Have fun
You have finish your research.. you accomplished your expected results with hard-work and full of commitment. Now, let everyone knows about your excellent findings. Like my lecturer says, treat this as ibadah. Viva is actually a place to spread knowledge and insyaAllah you will find ease in it. When you are corrected or panel pinpoints your mistakes, just acknowledge them and change it later in correction. They may know something you don't know. Don't argue. Even our prophet SAW used to being corrected by Allah in front of many people. He didn't deny it, he acknowledge it and change. It's a sunnah to follow his action.

Hmm..i don't know if my tips if are too general or useless. Just take the positive inputs eh.
Good luck to my juniors, Jaa and PZ that will face their master's viva soon.
Good luck to me too!



Last Messenger Kuliah from Mufti Menk

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Before this i've talk about series of kuliah given by the mufti of Zimbabwe, Mufti Menk. His speeches are extremely good and full of knowledge about our prophet Muhammad pbuh. So, as the month of Ramadhan is coming i want to share them here. I've shared all my files via Dropbox and i think it's quite easy to everyone to download it. The best thing about theses speeches is that it was given by Mufti Menk each night for 29 nights in Ramadhan 2012. So all we have to do is download the files and listen to it everyday for the whole month.

  1. Day 1
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  3. Day 3
  4. Day 4
  5. Day 5
  6. Day 6
  7. Day 7
  8. Day 8
  9. Day 9
  10. Day 10
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  12. Day 12
  13. Day 13
  14. Day 14
  15. Day 15
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  18. Day 18
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  20. Day 20
  21. Day 21
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  23. Day 23
  24. Day 24
  25. Day 25
  26. Day 26
  27. Day 27
  28. Day 28
  29. Day 29

Selamat mendengar and beramal~

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TOK

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"Mi, tok nak kencing.."
My beloved Tok (grandmother is referred as Tok by Kedahan) was hospitalized due to her serious stomach ache and I, at that point of time was at home during my semester break had to take care of her. Tok's motions were restricted so she needs my help to go everywhere. After 3 nights at Hospital Sik, I told Tok to get well soon or I would leave her alone at that hospital. I was feeling very bored and tired having to sleep on a chair, eating Tok's hospital meal and spending time in a ward full of sick people. After I finished threatening Tok, she asked me to make her a cup of coffee before making a promise to get well soon. I bet she knew her granddaughter's uneasiness.

However, Tok's condition started to worsen the day after and they decided to send her to general hospital in Alor Star. With blood bags on her bed, Tok was pushed into an ambulance by 2 nurses. With our clothes bags and stuff, I pushed myself into that ambulance too.

'Mi...Mi...'
I heard Tok was calling my name, repeatedly. I held Tok's hand to makesure she can feel my presence beside her. I continously holding Tok's hand while strugling with a little headache as the ambulance was driven crazily fast.

Tok was pushed into an emergency room as soon as we arrived. Everyone moves in hectic mode there and I was alone waiting for Tok outside of the emergency room. Luckily, Paksu arrived few minutes after that. Tok has 2 children, my father & Paksu. Tok was admitted and my sister came from Penang to look after Tok together with me. While Tok was asleep, me and my sis took the opportunity to look around that new general hospital. It was a huge hospital, nothing like what we had in Sik. We bought bread and fruit for Tok.

A group of doctors came in the morning and did some rough check-up on Tok's health. They took Tok for a proper check-up involving squezing a tiny camera inside Tok's stomach in the evening. I saw part of Tok's cloth was covered with blood when a nurse pushed Tok to her bed where me and my sis were waiting. Tok said it was very painful and she got upset with me because I didn't go inside the operation room with her. After that Tok finally regained her strenght and was discharged 2 days later.

That was one of my valuable experiences with arwah Tok.

.....

Tok has passed away on 12th May 2013.

Ever since Tok had gone forever, my tears drop almost everyday. It's not only because of the sadness but there's a pain inside my chest that no words can explain it. I wish i treated Tok better, I wish I massaged her regularly when she asked me to, I wish I listened to her dongeng, I wish she can witness my wedding and I wish I was there when she took her last breath.

Regrettably, I can't..



10 May 2013: Allah gave me an intuition that Tok will be gone forever.

May Allah bless my Tok, Engu Binti Hasan. Al-fatihah.


I will remember that feeling forever

Dear all, please appreciate everyone in our life for we don't know what we've got until we lost it.

Welcome to MALAYA

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Selepas melawat Chu Chi Tunnel di Vietnam  tempoh hari, barulah saya teringat yang di Malaysia sendiri pun ada tunnel yang digunakan zaman perang dulu2 kala. Di mana lagi kalau bukan di War Museum yang terletak di Batu Maung, Pulau Pinang, near Toy Musuem jugak. Go check please, sangat menginsafkan. Saya berpeluang menjejakkan kaki di sana selepas menghadiri kenduri Ida dan Nazmi 2 tahun lalu. Entry throwback kiranya nih. Nasib baik gambar2 masih ada dalam simpanan  *hembus hembus habuk*.


Time ni saya dan Yatt dok buat master lagi, Aiman kerja kat Perak dan Usyer kerja kat Kulim. This entry surely brings back good memories. Now memasing dah busy dengan kehidupan sendiri, taktau bila boleh berkumpul lagi. Kami gelarkan diri geng2 SKR cawangan Utara. Kema tak join lagi time nih.

 Masuk ja dalam muzium, selain "welcome" signboard tadi, kami dialu2kan dengan senarai perang yang melibatkan Tanah Melayu ketika itu. Dalam banyak-banyak perang itu, saya lebih familiar dengan Indonesian Confrontation hasil bacaan novel keperwiraan late Tun Kanang Anak Langkau ketika saya darjah 6. Peranan beliau dalam rejimen askar Melayu ketika itu sangat hebat dengan moto beliau "Agi Idup Agi Ngelaban". Pergh. A true hero. Macam nak baca lagi sekali novel tu, best!.

Didepan lubang tunnel. Muzium ni merupakan bekas kubu Jepun so design dia semua kecik-kecik ja. Tunnel pun ikut saiz askar depa, sama konsep macam Chu Chi tunnel. Tapi bezanya, tunnel ni digunakan oleh askar Jepun angkut peluru and barang keperluan manakala Chu Chi tempat rakyat Viet bersembunyi dari askar.
Segaknya gaya masuk tunnel nih, lain benar dengan Chu Chi Tunnel nun. Tunnel nih dah dilengkapi lampu menerangi perjalanan juga lebih bersih. Tunnel untuk askar and untuk rakyat pastilah sangat berbeza, needless to say.

 Diluar tunnel masih ada jerangkap samar yang masih aktif seperti dalam gambar di atas. Kubu ni berada di atas bukit, apabila askar musuh datang panjat jerangkap samar mcam ni sesuai untuk menghalang mereka. Strateg.

Senapang digunakan untuk menembak jatuh helikopter askar musuh.  
 Kesan asal hasil letupan askar musuh masih wujud sampai sekarang.

 Selain itu, ada juga tempat interrogation bagi tahanan. Layanan teruk sudah pasti.
Konsep pancung kepala yang diamalkan oleh askar Jepun bagi menghukum pembelot dan juga musuh. Brutal. Tapi bukan itu saja cara mereka mendera, kaum hawa ketika itu paling menderita kerana Sex Slavery. Ramai living proof mangsa rogol askar Jepun menderita hingga ke hari ini.

 

 
Askar Jepun membunuh orang kampung dan mengambil anak2 gadis untuk dijadikan pemuas hawa nafsu mereka di kubu.

 "THEY DIED FOR ALL FREE MEN"

Walaupun saya datang sini 2 tahun yang lepas, saya masih ingat imej2 yang dipamerkan tentang penyeksaan yang dilakukan oleh askar penjajah kepada rakyat kita dulu. Muzium ni banyak memberi pengajaran. Sebelum ini as a Malaysian yang lahir selepas merdeka saya selalu take things for granted, sudahla jarang sekali bersyukur dengan kebebasan yang dinikmati malah suka mengeluh. Datang sini tengok dengan mata sendiri betapa susahnya orang sebelum ini berjuang menuntut kebebasan.

Bersukaria itu best tetapi melawat juga muzium bagus untuk pembentukan jatidiri. Sedikit menyedihkan kerana sepanjang kami di muzium ni jumpa kurang dari 6 orang ja. Ramai lagi tak tahu pasal muzium ni, kot.

well..


Semoga Malaysia kekal aman damai

Semoga Malaysia sentiasa dirahmati Allah
Semoga Allah menempatkan semua hero2 yang terkorban menyelamatkan negara dikalangan orang-orang yang dicintaiNya
Amin.

Universal Studio Singapore

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Selepas menjejaki penghujung benua Asia semalam (bunyi macam jauh ja), seperti dirancangkan pagi ini kami akan bermain di Universal Studio Singapura (USS). Selain kami bertiga, kami disertai  3 warga lab juga iaitu Kak Dayang, Ekin dan PZ. Orang kata kalau dah dok kat Johor, tak pergi USS tak sah lah, dekat sangat dah. Mujur juga ada pakej dari UTMtoSingapore, bayar RM190/person termasuk tiket masuk USS, bas pergi balik dari Sri Putri dan white card.

Pukul 9.30am kami gerak dari USS, selepas masuk Larkin, turun di imegresen M'sia, turun di imegresen Singapore, finally kami sampai di USS kira2 pukul 1130am. Kami breakfast roti canai yang dibeli di kedai mamak belakang bus stand Sri Putri tadi sebelum bermain.

Pose wajib di depan trademark USS

USS terbahagi kepada 7 bahagian: ikut kami jalan dari kiri 1) Madagascar, 2) Far Far Away, 3) The Lost World, 4) Ancient Egytp, 5) Sci-Fi City, 6) New York and 7) Hollywood.


Madagascar-Far Far Away-The Lost World

Seperti taman permainan lain, kena beratur sebelum boleh main. Semakin best benda tu, semakin panjang linenya. Di Madagascar, kami menaiki river boat dan dibawa mengembara didalam gua dan boleh tengok karekter dalam Madagascar movie seperti Alex, Gloria, Marty and lain2. Front seater kena berhati2 kerana akan disimbah dengan air, sikit ja. Then, kami naik merry-go-round yang comel ja. Madagascar ni tempat panas2 badan ja dulu.

Seterusnya, kami ke Far Far Away land untuk tengok Shrek 4D movie and naik roller coaster. 

 Shrek and Princess Fiona are loveliest and friendly creature

Shrek 4D movie sangat best. Kita cuma perlu duduk dan menghayati perjalanan Shrek menyelamatkan Princess Fiona yang diculik. Kalau 3D kita rasa macam kita berada dalam movie tu, 4D kita rasa kita yang naik selamatkan Princess Fiona tuh. Effect berangin and terenjut naik kereta kuda, kaki meremang kena serang labah-labah and kesejukan kena air time naik dragon tu memang menjadi. Then, kena naik roller coaster pertama dalam hidup di sini. Seram gila!. Di USS ni ada 4 roller coasters, yang kat Far Far Away ni paling lembut la compared to yang lain semua high-speed above 80 km/h punya. No way lah nak naik. Naik yang lembut2 ni pun dah nak tercabut jantung. Kali pertama and kena duduk front seat lagi!. Yang lagi bongok (refer untuk diri sendiri) , saya tengah keluarkan Blackberry nak amik picture tiba2 roller coaster bergerak. Sebelah tangan pegang holder tu sebelah lagi pegang tangan Kak Dayang dengan BB dalam genggaman. OMG!

Then, kami teruskan perjalanan ke The Lost World, tempat dinosaur bermaharajalela.

 Tyrannosaurus-Rex menjumpai tempat asalannya

Kami naik river raft boat kalini, boleh tengok dinosour serta anak2 and yang paling menakutkan bila kami dibawa masuk kedalam bangunan lama yang telah diattacked oleh dinosour. Sampai 1 part, boat ditinggikan and kami dah bersedia kot kot boat akan dijatuhkan kebawah tapi unexpectedly, boat digelongsorkan ke belah kiri dengan tiba2. Hampir tercabut jantung jugak kat sini. And betullah initial warning yang bakal basah, time kat sini ramai yang basah. Nasib baik letak barang dalam locker. Tapi ada sorang akak foreigner ni tanpa mempedulikan surrounding dok amik gambar guna kamera, kagums sungguh. Tangan saya cuma mampu memaut kuat di holder and tangan Trah ja.

Then, kami berDino-Souring pula. Katanya untuk kanak-kanak tapi still menakutian jugak. Lemah jantung sungguh saya ni. Disebabkan masa untuk menonton live action dah terlepas, kami proceed ke Ancient Egypt pula,

Ancient Egypt-Sci-Fi City


Ancient Eqypt satu-satunya kawasan kami tak berminat nak main game. High speed roller coaster and jeep yang 30minutes of waiting, baik jalan tempat lain dulu. Skip that and we went to the most awaited Sci-Fi City tempat Transformers berkumpul. Line paling panjang nak dihadap tapi kami tegar nak naik Transformers 4D ride yang orang kata best amat tu. Nasib baik tempat beratur dihiasi barang2 transformers boleh juga menghilangkan bosan tapi sakit tumit still tak hilang.

Lengan Megatron yang terpotong dalam Transformer 1.

Serpihan All-spark

This initial warning dah oke, ikut kita nak follow ke tak

Wuhuu! Front seat lagi! Nak nangis rasanya. Bagi saya, ride ni paling nak tercabut jantung, horror and paling lama dirasai padahal sekejap ja. Mula2 rasa naik kereta then, bertukar jadi transformers and kena lawan dengan Megatron. Kena sedut and kena baling in 4D version amat menakutkan. Sampai satu tahap saya tendang tempat letak kaki sebab rasa macam nak terkeluar dari kereta. Time tu kalau mereka ambil picture, opkos boleh menang anugerah minah paling memalukan. Last part paling mendebarkan, saya dah tak dapat tahan lalu pegang lengan Trah lagi (sori Trah...) sambil panggil Mak! Mak! Mak!. Okey, seriously memalukan.

Keluar ja dari Transformer ride, kami solat di tempat solat yang sangat tak selesa. well, they should provide the bigger one kot memandangkan Muslim ramai kat sana. Siap solat kami lepak menenangkan fikiran sambil menonton Hollywood parade sepanjang jalan. Parade di hanya ada time weekends. 

Selesai parade, kami proceed to New York and Hollywood. 

Dengan harapan tak ada lagi ride yang meluruhkan jantung, gerak kaki diteruskan. Memula kami menaiki Sesame Street Space Chase, saya tak boleh rilex lagi sebab takut tetiba ada benda menakutkan lagi. Tapi sampai ke hujung tiada apa2 melainkan karektor sesame street yang comel. Tapi saya tetap automatic pegang tangan Kak Dayang bila tengok benda pelik sepangjang ride tuh. Kami berdua gelak dengan hebat bila tau ride dah sampai penghujung sebab finally boleh melepaskan nafas lega. Ohoho penakutnya diri ini! Kami juga masuk menonton 2D version of  Steven Spielberg dok bercerita pasal effects dalam movie dia and dia tunjuk macamna dari pentas kosong menjadi New York City tengah dilanda hurricane. Patutlah movie dia semua hebat belaka, bukan calang2 effect dia guna. 

Lastly, kami singgah di Hollywood untuk amik pic and beli cenderahti untuk dibawa pulang. Selesai misi USS. Kat sini boleh tenangkan balik jantung. USS tutup pukul 730pm, kami turun menanti bas pulang ke Sri Putri. Dah boleh tick buang USS dalam list places to go \(^_^)/









 

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