Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Ayah: Day 7 Redzone

Posted by NER on August 20, 2013 with No comments

I arrived at ayah's new ward around 10am with Enah. Currently, she is our driver. In the morning, she send me and taking mak home. At 6pm she came to take me home and 1st bro took the baton to stay with ayah. The cycle is running perfectly these few days, and we will stick with the cycle until ayah got discharged. 

After mak and enah left, i started to massage ayah's left body like how the physiotherapist taught me. Then i feed him with his nutritious milk and finally, his medicine. I sit on a chair beside ayah after that. 

My power nap was disturbed when a group of doctors came to do a regular check up. A Chinese doctor came closer to me and started to explain about ayah's condition. She said they need to take ayah to the new hospital again to do a CT scan. 

Huh?! What is the point they transfer ayah to the old hospital and get back to the new hospital one day after?A nurse came in and i was asked if i want go to the new hospital with ambulance too. I said yes. It was my 2nd time. 

Ayah's head was scanned and he was put in the Red zone/emergency room after the result was obtained. They found that the bleeding inside his brain is getting wider. The infected area has increased as ayah has been feeding a medicine to liquify the blood and his hypertension making it worst. I was called by the neuro surgeon team for further arrangement. The surgeon told me every single details about ayah's condition and the surgery they might do in order to remove the blood. He told me the possibilities and risks about the outcome. 

I was confused. 

From what he told me, the surgery seems like a bad idea. 
I told him that I need to consult with my family members before giving him the final decision, either to proceed with the surgery or not.
I hurriedly call all the family members to discuss the urgent matter. 
As expected, they are all agreed with me - the surgery will do more harm than good.

They took ayah upstairs and once again he was admitted in his old ward in the new hospital but in different bed. I went to the old hospital to take ayah's belongings.

 It turned out the staff at the new hospital has made a silliest mistake in her life, enough said.

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Ayah: Day 4 Pampers

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Raya ke 3 and ayah's condition still has not showing any improvement. He lose the ability to pee naturally so doctor has to provide him with pampers. Ayah has a big build that giving us difficulties to pull his leg the first time we want to change the pampers. Luckily Adi, our cousin from ayah's side came to visit. Together with him, me, Enah and Mak changed ayah's pampers. Ayah seems embarrassed when his daughters were cleaning his pee. He tried to speak but his lips cant functioning very well too.

After that, i went outside to stay with Zahra as Kakla wanted to come into the ward. Child below 12 yrs old cannot enter the ward. I took Zahra to the playground where all the children gather. I need a space to breath too. Unfortunately, there were so many children. i forgot about raya holiday. All patients' relatives are taking this chances to visit. 

Then, Kakla comes and i leave Zahra with her while i taking a break under a tree. Suddenly, there is a sick-looking woman came and started talking. She told me that she was just delivered a premature baby 2 weeks ago. She can go back home while her 7month old infant still needed full treatment. However, she still needs to come to the hospital to breast feed her baby. Her motherly tone suggested that she's okay with that as long as her baby is okay. She's the same age as mine and alreadya has 2 children. I feel intimidated when i told her that we're have the same age but i'm still a student and single. The difference is somwehow menakutkan..... 

Nurse ties Ayah's arm because he wants to remove the tiny tube near his nose.
Sabarla Ayah..

Monday, August 12, 2013

Ayah: Day 1 Rebah

Posted by NER on August 12, 2013 with No comments

Ayah suddenly fell and his left side was paralyzed when he were preparing a place to make lemang. It was a day before raya and obviously Ayah was super-excited about it. That morning he told mak that he was gonna add another 2kg of beras pulut so that lemang will be enough to be distributed among his colleagues and besan-besan. Mak goes against Ayah this time as Mak already knew that ayah's health was at its lowest these few days but Ayah still with his decision. He went outside to makesure his lemang will be made in a perfect condition.

Older bro cried my name from outside "ayah lembik!" while trying his best to hold Ayah. When i arrived i saw older bro were desperately pulling Ayah to get into the house. All family members gathered around Ayah and massage him. Bro took him to district hospital for further treatment then ayah was transferred to the bigger hospital new few hours. 

Doctors scanned ayah's brain and they found blood inside his brain that prevented oxygen and giving pressure to the other parts of his brain. My family members rushingly went to the hospital and break our last fasting at the hospital. Tomorrow is Hari Raya Aidilfitri but Ayah didn't even recognize us.