Thursday, September 22, 2016

Motivation renewed

Posted by NER on September 22, 2016 with No comments


It’s been awhile since I wrote something in here. Since ayah’s entry.
Ayah’s passing surely had affected my whole life and it makes me re-evaluate my own goal. Recently, I went to a workshop about supervision and the speaker asked us: 

“What is your motivation?”
A seemingly simple question that was too hard for me to answer.

It used to be,
“I want to work hard to make my parents happy & healthy, take them to Mekah and enjoy their lives to the fullest” But, ayah is not here anymore.

The speaker asked us think about it again and kept repeating the same question:

“What is your motivation?”

Then I remembered something. As a new lecturer, I was swamped with a lot of responsibilities, challenged to teach new subjects, new style to adapt and met with different kinds of people. My time was filled with university’s stuff and I enjoyed it very much, never knew I will. I voluntarily went to the office during weekends to prepare the teaching materials and stayed in the office even after working hours. It is surely a hectic career but when I look at my students' accomplishments, it was totally worth it. 

I learn a lot about my life and the life of others too. Now I realized my new motivation.

“I want to work hard to fulfill and go beyond my responsibilities so Allah will be pleased with me"

I decided to stop putting my goal on human being. Human can perish but human’s Creator will always be here. By putting my responsibilities, I have covered a lot of things. Responsibility as my parents’ daughter, my students’ lecturer and you name it, insyaAllah I will stretch my limit to achieve it.

Actually the speaker did not want to hear our motivations, he just wants us to think about it deeply and realize it by ourselves.

Well now I realized mine. What's yours?